‘It’s been a long week and I am tired. What I wouldn’t give to have someone like Connor or Jacob go to town on me, or to let me fuck away my frustrations and anxieties. If only I could tie their hands back and just ride them until I’m completely and utterly satisfied. I know I would feel bad, like I’ve used them for something so selfish. So I would be more than happy to let them have their way, however they wanted it.’