Please take care of yourself first and foremost, my dear. Fandoms and places like this can only do so much; they can help you forget, but sometimes they can get rather toxic to anyone who’s vulnerable. So please focus on yourself right now and please do not hesitate to seek help. I personally know how difficult it is to ask for help especially when you have a strong front to maintain, but it is during these difficult times that we find our most treasured friends and loved ones.
Love,
~ Signora Paola