Sweetheart!
I am sorry, that we reply to so damn late to your message, but let me tell you this: If you feel distressed and overweighed by emotion, worry and other harming thoughts, please call the lifeline of your country!
So if you live in the United States and need someone to talk to, please consider calling this number.
1-800-273-8255
I personally do not live in the US, but I love reading this page of theirs.
It is inspiring and the first step for helping yourself 🙂
Please stay safe and take care of yourself, even if you just take a shower or snuggle into a comfy blanket, while listening to music!
-La Rosa in Fiore <3